Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Contact

A year goes by
Limited contact
A few lame attempts to suggesting we work it out
No follow through
Silence

My pain, my misery,
Confusion, no explanation,
No understanding
Attempts to solve
Working solo for a year

I start to come to my senses
Accept you are gone
That your words are lies

I stand up
Write a goodbye email for me
and you respond

The only reason I write you say
Is to manipulate and get what I want

I wonder if you read anything in the past year
If you took time to look at us
Because all the emails say the same thing
"Please talk to me so we can figure this out"


Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Empty

The time has come where I have said
No more emails
No more contact (barring business)

I have sent my last one and stuck to it
There just comes a time when I accept the action
The words are empty

I know this
I can see this
It indicates that what we had may have been nothing
It is without question time to move on

Yet, inside my soul feels empty
I feel hollow
I feel missing
I feel some of me is truly gone

It dampens my spirit and
In some ways I feel I may never get it back
That I am not competent enough
To hold those feelings for anyone ever again

Each day I wake up
You still run in my mind
Each night I rest my head
You are in my thoughts

Time for you to go away too
Fully
Time to feel truly empty

Thursday, May 13, 2010

How have...

you been treated lately?

A question in reference to you.

The answer, horribly, still no response.

I know it is done. Sad when all that was asked for was simple courtesy
Even if it was a goodbye.

I have been letting go but that gave me misty eyes.

I look at who presents themself to me lately

I just don't get excited, and I wonder if I ever will.

I really did give it all.

Better to have loved and.....

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Frustration

All the things I am looking for are here
All is well
The things which cause me stress are not present
This is great

Why am I frustrated?
Because I want to share and experience it with someone
A special person
That is the part which seems to elude me constantly

They say we create our own worlds and destiny
I think I believe this
So why do I keep creating something in which I am frustrated
Lacking in one aspect or another?

That is the part which makes no sense
Why create that which we find disturbing?
It perplexes me and not sure how to remedy it!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Lately

I have been effected by excessive longing
Missing you
Wondering why
Wishing you would get out of my head
So I could just move forward and get something so much better
Cause you sure are not it with the silence and lack of communication you hold