Leaving a Mark

I traditionally feel left out
I miss the gossip
I don't understand the connection
I sit alone at the party

This does not mean I don't have friends
But in bigger groups I am not as active as everyone else
It feels lonely

I see people saying goodbye
Developing great friendships
Learning about each other and connecting
I wish

In the past week something has happened
Maybe I stopped trying so it was allowed to happen
Maybe I have grown and did something different
It is not something for me to truly question

I looked around and realized that this time
In this group
In this location
I have connected
People are going to miss me
I am valued here and understood
I have left a mark
and so have they