Scares

There is not too much that I want in life

I have had lofty dreams 

But those have become grounded

I recognize what they can be

And realize that they can exist rooted firmly

Possibly lofty if lucky

But into those dreams has always been you

And now that you are here I want integration

It is happening but it takes time

Space and distance

Included in that are simple pleasures

Which seem difficult to achieve

I want some new shoes, a shirt, some contacts,

I want to go for a drink, a night out and a weekend away

I want some basic romance things

They seem hard to get right now

and as I draw closer to the close of one thing

and the opening of the door of my wonderful new life

with you (an event so exciting to me)

I get a bit scared

Those things I want can only be achieved with some stability

I don't have it

I don't have a plan

and I am not used to that

So I get a bit scared as to how I will get those things

I know with you it can be done and I will over come

however, but lingers...

I am tired of being in want, I am tired of being here

I want only you and our dreams

I don't want to disappoint you or me