Trying

I give all I have
Right from the beginning
Without fail
Was shut down twice
Still gave all I had
Found even more to give
When do I stop trying
When do I stop giving
The second I realize that I get nothing back
and what I offer is no longer on equal terms

That return
That equality
Is what makes someone special
And until you I believed it could not be found
Day by day my belief slips away

I am good alone
But lets be honest
My life without you
Is meaningless and chaotic
Everything else I say to myself is a lie
Just to cope with constant sadness

Whatever works
Numb pain