Sunday and You

Standing there
I don't want you to go
I don't want to go
We have just spent an evening
I think understanding something that we knew was there
The evening was used to acknowledge it
The feeling is wonderful
The feeling is mutual

Neither of us wants to destroy what it is
Neither of us wants to push to hard
Neither of us wants to claim it fully

We understand that right now in this moment
There is a path we walk with some divergence
It diverges from what we just acknowledged
I admire, cherish, relish, value, feel for you, for your passion
For being so vibrant in what you are right now and I believe always will be
You admire, cherish, relish, value, feel for me, for my passion
For being brave in walking away to find truer meaning

That distance holds us at bay but does not diminsh what we feel
It is necessary to explore those individual paths right now
I know that whatever I am is 100 times more when I am done this exploration
Which will be all that much more for you, us, if the divergent paths come together

You expressed a fear of seeing what you want but being unable to hold it now
I know that whatever you are is 100 times more when you are done your exploration
Which will be all that much more for you, us, if the divergent paths come together

We shared and now know that there are so many times that we had the same thought
but for fear of breaking something already amazing by going to far we held back
You are brave for having spoke the words, I am glad that you did
So many times I looked into your eyes expressing how much I truly understood
Hoping you would be able to understand how deep it ran
As I expressed verbally, as close to the edge as I dared take us, without crossing the line
The universe works in interesting ways

I spoke about your purity
I spoke about my ability to see what you want/need
In holding back we mutually demonstrate how that suits us both perfectly
How we match in it
Time will take it where it needs to go

In the interim
A mutual desire to touch it, to rub our hands in it
A finger paint mural of exploration
Innocent but not
as innocence is lost in growth
in knowledge
This does not mean purity has to be removed

I see you on those stairs, needing to go, wanting to stay
I feel you on me, a moment of fully letting go
Oh the bliss
but we must go
How to claim it, knowing what we know?
How to claim it without destruction?
I ask, you agree, for the attempt of some more time shared,
Knowing what we now admit to share that time in that light
Without pressure because we know the path is divergent for now
And time will guide it us where it needs.

Oh the moment of clarity
This moment of longing
This moment where we both share enough knowledge of how dear we are
Knowledge that each other's growth is more important than the selfish desire
of a mutual want
Ironically making us want it more
Ironically encouraging us to continue on the way we do
Ironically and mystically drawing us closer together

Oh the things could I not even phathom
You are its embodiment