From Me

At one point in my life 

I was very cautious with the words I chose

I spoke very carefully 

I was nicknamed the mouse because I was so quiet

When asked for my input I had fountains of knowledge

But I chose carefully how I said it

Things changed somewhere along the line

Not sure when

I don't think I am any less careful with my thoughts

But I do offer them more freely

People comment on when I am silent, somewhat surprised

But what is different is this

I often say or write something

Simply because I do

It is what I do

I have been questioned on these things a few times

In pondering them carefully I realized that I often express based on intuition or feeling

That although I may not know exactly in the moment why I am saying something it is usually quite right and emotionally speaking hitting the nail on the head

I pondered further and realized

I trained for twenty years as an actor

Twenty years of training which teaches the ability to access and trust feelings

Something I don't think I do very well as I can't get hired as an actor

But apparently I was wrong

I do it very well

I intuit and express my feelings and impact people

I do this when I just let myself be 

When I don't try to do it

What I have learned is that I am really bad at explaining why I am saying a specific thing

Yes I know I just pointed out that you are hurting and in denial and were choosing to hide

Yes I know we were talking about chocolate cake and that had nothing to do with it

Yes I know that I was right on the head with it and it frustrates you

NO! I have no idea how our chocolate cake conversation brought that to light or what you did or said to make me say that

Trust me