Last Night

Here on the ship is not what I thought it would be
The excitement of going to you is missing
The excitement of starting a new life
The excitement of finding new things
The excitement of us
All that I knew is changed
I am unsure and scared
Love is expressed, desire to work
I expect fluctuation in that feeling
I trust to it overall
But wonder at what point will it feel like we are together
At what point will I be welcome
At what point...
I trust that we are and we will
I have given my everything without reserve
I put faith in "god" I know I am guided
All is changed and I am scared of losing you
For you are my light, my breath of fresh air
On this last night, I question, and hurt