Discombobulated

Things are okay

But there is distance

Unwanted

It breaks communication

Makes it difficult

It is only three more months

Yet it will be the hardest

We came through something rather difficult

Just put our feet on the right path

And now we are parting again

After all this time it would be silly to stop

So close to the end

But also so difficult to just accept the words being said

Trust that bonds are the solid

I believe in us

I don't want anything else

But I wish this was a challenge not faced

It has left me feeling discombobulated and lost

I have an uncertainty sitting in me

I know all of my side 

But not all of yours

There feels something unspoken

Like I have missed something

If I am right unless I am told I cannot help

I have done all I can 

To lay out a plan for the next year

Loose goals allowing for me to be there

Things that will change as we go along 

But at least a plan that will get me there

It is a big risk for me

But you are worth it

I feel alone in my approach

But know nothing else that can be done

As time goes by I will trust to the universe and you

You have proven time and time again you are not my past

I have no reason to doubt you 

I guess I fear one thing as I write I feel it

You have said you close up

Please don't do that

We know that outcome 

And for three months I cannot come to you to stop it

I take a deep breath and I breathe

That is what was needed I cannot control

This rollercoaster is almost at an end

One more time around