Ship

The ship is this little bubble I go to 

It is a place where reality disappears

People come and people go 

There is no current events

There is no bad day

The weather always feels the same

A safe little bubble

I went there to change my life

To clear my debts and my head

I have achieved both

I am debt free and know I am an actor

Through and through

The ship gave me more than I expected

It gave me clarity and insight into myself

It showed me what I was capable of doing for me

It allowed me personal understanding and acceptance

So that I could do things without lying to myself anymore

Without playing games against me

I thought that was enough

It was stunning but the ship gave me more again

In my clarity I became open

I became free

I became able to hear

You spoke and my soul rang 

From Quazimoto's tower

I looked down 

Afraid at first of the distance to the ground

But as time grew as I listened more

I shouted my love with the ringing of the bells

No longer afraid of the fall

I looked to the sky to soar with the eagles

To fly above everyone with joy in my heart

I had to look down to conquer my fears

I had to look down to understand the sky

The ship gave me more than I could ever have imagined

In the past I would have had to touch the ground and get comfortable again

To experience it and reassure myself that the sky was worth it

With the lessons learned on the ship

All I had to do was look down to gain that understanding of the ground

I had no need to experience it

I was open enough to call on my past, to recall what it was, to understand what it did to me

I was free enough to know the ground offered me nothing compared to you

I was clear enough to trust the wings I had grown but never tested

I love enough to test my wings with you

I have never flown before

and I am a slow learner

At first it seemed easy and I soared beside you with grace

But as I learn I discovered things I did not understand about flight

My wings are not yet fully developed 

I have troubles with them

I have tumbled from the sky in fear

Flapping violently hoping not to hit the ground

A place I no longer need or want

As I fall I cry to the heavens in my want to soar, to be free

I am open and you have taught me much too

I listen to your words and I breathed

I control my panic

I focussed and I spread my wings

With some effort I flapped them and they supported me

I looked above and you were a speck in the sky

It is a long way back to you

My wings have gained some strength and I can make the distance

It will take a while but I will soar beside you again

When I do we shall hold hands and soar together